Anticipation

This anticipation is killing me. At first, when we found out we were expecting again, I thought I could wait until the baby was born.

Now that I know we are going in tomorrow to find out if this baby is a HE or a SHE, I can't seem to wait. I want to know now! I can't remember if it was like this with Button, but I am so excited I am ready to burst.

Now, to tell you the truth, I don't care either way, I just want to know. I want to go out and get cute little outfits, and something to bring Baby home in. I want to call this baby HE or SHE instead of Baby. I want to know if I need to get anything specific and get out the tubs in the basement and get everything organized.

One more day. 26 hours or so, give or take a few minutes and offices running late, we will be getting out anatomy scan.

Now, I know this scan is about SO MUCH MORE than just gender. With Button, there was an abnormality. We had to go see a specialist because of an echogenic foci on her heart, which can be a marker for Down Syndrome. It was a scary, scary time. We saw a genetic counselor, we had a long ultrasound, we saw the specialist, then back to the genetic counselor for more discussion on our options and what we wanted to do. We declined the amino - the risk was not worth the knowledge to me. It truly did not matter, I loved Button so much by that time, it did not matter, as long as she was happy and healthy and would be part of our lives for a long time.

I am nervous something like this might happen again. I know it is a possibility they might find something worth looking at in more detail. I know that we might have to make the trip to the larger hospital and the specialist again. But I also know that I will get to see my precious baby tomorrow and find out (if she or he is willing!) if baby is a boy or a girl.

So I am excited, nervous, happy, and can't wait to find out everything and to see my little one. Baby has been kicking up a storm and I am getting super excited to meet this little one.

It is interesting, how much more excited I get towards the end of pregnancy. This is the point that everything becomes more and more real to me. I can feel Baby moving. I KNOW that Baby is in there.

And I can't wait! :)