I feel like a failure

So last night I caved in and gave the nuk back. Transitioning to the big girl bed has been very, very hard. She slept so well her first night, and was up once the second night. This weekend was terrible. She was up 3 or 4 times on Saturday. She was overtired, crabby and, in all honesty, so was I.

So last night we decided to see if giving back the nuk would work. She was so cute, "Mama found it!"

She was up at 4am.

I don't know what else to do. I am tired, and honestly, I just don't want to do this anymore. I want to sleep. All night long. For more than one night. Am I asking too much?

I am 18 weeks pregnant, work full time and run around like crazy after our 19 month old. I was so proud that she went almost a full week without the nuk. She didn't even ask for it after a day or two. And now I feel like I gave in by giving it back.

I know that since we took it away once, we can do it again. And giving it back, there are going to be many more limitations. Like you can only have it in your big girl bed. But still. I feel like I am going backwards.

I know it will get better, and that I will get sleep again. In about 5 years or so. But I am considering leaving Button home with Hubby and getting a hotel room all my own .... Glorious sleep!

Big Girl Bed

We did it. We got Button a big girl bed. She has been climbing out of her crib and we were going to transition her this fall anyway, we are just doing it slightly earlier.

She loves her new bed, which is great, but won't sleep in it alone. At least she won't fall asleep on her own. Which is ok, since it has only been two nights, but I miss those easy nights of putting her in her crib with Dolly and stories. When she fell asleep, I went in and turned her light off.

Not so much. Last night it took about an hour and half. And since I am also preggers, I was almost asleep and dead tired by the time I finally left her on her own. She did finally go down about 9pm, but it was tough. She work up about 2:15am and it took about 30 minutes to get her back down.

I know this is normal and it will just take time. But man, today am I tired!

But she does love her bed!

Stress

I just found out I will again be increasing my workload at work. I don't know how I will fit it all in. Looks like this will be the last quarter I take a class, since I am adding teaching to my list of things to do at work.

I know I will enjoy teaching, so its not that aspect. Its the fact that I already feel overloaded. Oh well, something will come along when the time is right ... Right???