Monday, March 26, 2012

Disappointing

So I had an interview last week. I thought it went really well, but I guess something was off. I found out today I didn't get the job. So yeah, I am disappointed. I had wanted the job. I know I could do the job, really really well too. But it was not to be.

Everyone keeps telling me that it just was not mean to be ... No duh. I mean, let's be honest, if it was meant to be I would be talking about how excited I was to be changing jobs right now!! I know something will come along, but I am still disappointed.

On a high note, Button was really excited to see me when I got home (late) today. She was happy, smiling. And she had yogurt for dinner - and was covered head to toe. It was adorable. We played in the bathtub. Then we played in the living room. And now I am not so sad, because if it wasn't right for me, it wasn't right for my family.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Monday Blues

Yes, there are Sunday nights when I go to sleep thinking it is GREAT that Little Nut is going to daycare in the morning and my sanity will soon return. Then Monday comes and I just want to stay home and snuggle her.

The weather is now really nice out as well (which is VERY uncommon for Wisconsin in March - I mean it is going to be 80 again today!!). I could be taking her for an afternoon walk and playing outside and going down the slide.

But I am at work. And I miss her. So it is time for my Monday blues ....

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Decision Time

Two weeks ago I lost six pounds - normally this would make me jump for joy, but it turns out that it was due to stress. I could not eat for 5 days (and I LOVE to eat).

So I am making some changes. The first was to work with my boss on leaving work earlier - starting Monday I will be working 7:30-4:30 instead of 8-5. This may not sound huge, but it really is. I am also starting to reevaluate what I want out of a job and how to get it. That means starting the job search over and really starting to figure out what I want and how I can get there.

I want to be home more with Button. I just need to find a way to make that happen. I want to be happy again, I want to really get my life on track the way I want it to be. So I am looking both inside and outside of education, and I still really want to do Stella and Dot.

Who knows what life will bring, but I love spending time with Little Nut, and I need to find a way to do more of that. I am a MOM - first and foremost. This is what makes me me. Not my career. And I think that is GREAT!